Dreams
My first ever blog posting & I've decided to write about dreams. But what about dreams? The kind where you have goals or aspirations to be a big movie star or to win the lottery? No, not those dreams. I'm talking about actual dreams. This morning I woke up around 7:15 & that's just entirely too early on a Sunday. So I walked Blue, but decided to head back to bed. Now, during this second go around at sleep, I ended up waking up around 9:30, which again seemed entirely too early. There is a story coming I promise...During my third attempt, I actually crashed & crashed hard. But during this time, I had one of the strangest & worst dreams I've ever been able to remember. Like a lot of dreams, this was started out weird & jumped all over the place. That's not the part that got bad for me. I distinctly remember three parts or chapters of the dream.
One had me competing in a team building event with people who I didn't know, so that wasn't too special. The second had me going from that to be the Cubs announcer on TV (Yes the Cubs, so no nightmare jokes from any of you & yes TV even though I wanna do radio. Hey you explain dreams, I can't). And the third part, which is the aforementioned worst dream I've ever been able to remember.
Does anyone watch ER? Yes ER is still on & yes I watch it. Well on ER, there is a character named Abby Lockhart, played by Maura Tierney, who aside from ER has been in "Liar, Liar," "Insomnia," "Primary Colors" & a bunch of other things. Anyway, on the show, she is currently pregnant. So in my dream, I'm doing a Cubs game, which is suddenly on a balcony looking down on a hospital staffed by the cast from ER. While looking down on this scene, I see Lockhart collapse & immediately I rush from the balcony, down the stairs to try & help. I get down there & she's fading fast & having all sorts of issues, when they pull out those paddle things (see how great of a dream doctor I am) & shock her to keep her alive. Well, we keep doing this over & over again to no avail & she ends up dying in my arms while I'm screaming to shock her again & balling as hard as I could ever imagine myself crying.
The dream ended with me holding her, crying & there was actually a dramatic camera like fade out of the scene, which totally made me feel like I was on the show. The whole time just crying my eyes out.
At this point, I actually wake up with my pillow wrapped in my arms & feeling like I had been crying a little bit to coincide with my dreams. It was odd enough to actually finish a dream before I woke up, but to have been crying a little bit. I've had dying dreams before, but without a doubt this was the most vivid dying dream I've ever had.
So like I said, you tell me, what does this mean? Something? Nothing? That I desperately wish I was a doctor? Or an actor so I could be on ER? It was just so, I don't wanna say real, but it was so dramatic, so detailed for a dream. And the fact that I remembered every part about it, I don't know. Is there a message buried in there somewhere that I'm supposed to know & take with me?
One had me competing in a team building event with people who I didn't know, so that wasn't too special. The second had me going from that to be the Cubs announcer on TV (Yes the Cubs, so no nightmare jokes from any of you & yes TV even though I wanna do radio. Hey you explain dreams, I can't). And the third part, which is the aforementioned worst dream I've ever been able to remember.
Does anyone watch ER? Yes ER is still on & yes I watch it. Well on ER, there is a character named Abby Lockhart, played by Maura Tierney, who aside from ER has been in "Liar, Liar," "Insomnia," "Primary Colors" & a bunch of other things. Anyway, on the show, she is currently pregnant. So in my dream, I'm doing a Cubs game, which is suddenly on a balcony looking down on a hospital staffed by the cast from ER. While looking down on this scene, I see Lockhart collapse & immediately I rush from the balcony, down the stairs to try & help. I get down there & she's fading fast & having all sorts of issues, when they pull out those paddle things (see how great of a dream doctor I am) & shock her to keep her alive. Well, we keep doing this over & over again to no avail & she ends up dying in my arms while I'm screaming to shock her again & balling as hard as I could ever imagine myself crying.
The dream ended with me holding her, crying & there was actually a dramatic camera like fade out of the scene, which totally made me feel like I was on the show. The whole time just crying my eyes out.
At this point, I actually wake up with my pillow wrapped in my arms & feeling like I had been crying a little bit to coincide with my dreams. It was odd enough to actually finish a dream before I woke up, but to have been crying a little bit. I've had dying dreams before, but without a doubt this was the most vivid dying dream I've ever had.
So like I said, you tell me, what does this mean? Something? Nothing? That I desperately wish I was a doctor? Or an actor so I could be on ER? It was just so, I don't wanna say real, but it was so dramatic, so detailed for a dream. And the fact that I remembered every part about it, I don't know. Is there a message buried in there somewhere that I'm supposed to know & take with me?
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